~flying.bullets.through.my.heart

Thursday, June 02, 2005

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Tears Of cut himself again at 1:56 PM

Tuesday, May 24, 2005

i love you.
Nicole.

had MT block period in the morning.
VEP in after recess.
assembly was some pep talk about O levels.
fall-in for ncc.
(can't wait to get out i tell ya.)
went home.
met nicole.
bumped into david.
exchanged weird smiles.
went home.
pk-ed with rampaged.
got home.
cleaned the burning microwave.
=X
now blogging.
boring?

my sentiments exactly.

~~am i what people think i am?~~

~~Tears Of cut himself again at 8:11 PM~~

Saturday, May 21, 2005

blogger in chinese?

topped class for English.
rising in PKSG.
MT O Level drawing closer.
weeks are hanging loose.
friends leaving singapore.
loved ones leaving singapore.
people sucking up to me.
changing my mindset.
i'm growing up.

i'm scared.
dear, hold me.
tight.

~~The PK-ing Pastry~~

Tears Of cut himself again at 11:52 AM

Monday, May 16, 2005

Day Eight

finally its all over.
DNT was all shit.
didn't study much except for electronic components.
had gastric during the paper.
didn't have enough energy.
or concentration.
so in other words.
that's one more paper gone down the drain.

went to MacDonalds for breakfast with evil twin.
slacked and talked.
he let me listen to MCR on his CD player.
i guess its the first thing that made me smile.
^_^

11th June.
3pm.
don't forget dear.
hope you'll get well soon.
really worried for ya.
=X
*muacks*
call me soon.
i miss you.

feeling damn shitty today.
its either the weather.
or the traffic.
everything is rushing to an end.
and i'm struggling to keep up.
its difficult, really.
sadness is sinking in over.
i think it must be severe chronic depression.
no, i haven't went for diagnosis.

wrote random messages on my hand.
its freaky yet beautiful at the same time.
heh.

my heart feels heavy.
i need that hug again.
sigh.
i need to cry again.

~~life is but a dream to the dead~~

Tears Of cut himself again at 1:05 PM

Friday, May 13, 2005

Day Seven

i screwed it all up.

went home after the papers.
tricked for awhile at interchange.
met up with Nicole.
dragged myself through Orchard.
slacked at the playground till we ran outta sunlight.
=T
sometimes the best things to say is nothing at all.
hahaha.

for some strange reason,
i'm feeling all tired.
will write when i'm more sane.
later you little people of Earth.

~~South African Ninjitsu Team ??~~

Tears Of cut himself again at 10:03 PM

Thursday, May 12, 2005

Day Six

physics was okayy.
i don't think i'm gonna get A2.
probably a B4 at the most.
sigh.
i'm starting to get exhausted of studying.
tomorrow i'm having two major papers.
Accountings II.
Maths II.
i need to cry already.

managed to catch my dear on the way home.
lol.
i need you so bad.
its so fucking cold today.
keep me warm with this touch of yours.
can you feel my heart beating?
yes, its beats are slowing.
failing me every second.
my heart is aching, dear.
this emptiness inside devours my soul.
eating me inside out.
and i helplessly sit back.
and grit my teeth as my heart bleeds over.
how i wish we could just lie down.
and forget time for a moment.
forget everything for a moment.
i would do nothing but hold you close.
and just cry my eyes out.
let the tears burn my sight.
cause its difficult to tell myself.
that it might be the last time i'll hold you.
its painful.
and you might see me crying for the first time at the airport.

oh fuck.
emo me.

saturday you've got that art exhibition.
sunday you're busy packing.
that leaves friday.
i've got monday and tuesday free.
i don't hafta go to school on tuesday cause its an art paper on that day.
^_^
snuggle up shall we?
hee.

Almost Here
Brian Mcfadden ft. Delta Goodrem

But when I need you
You’re almost here
And I know that’s
Not enough
But when I’m with you
I’m close to tears
‘Cause you’re only almost here

~~sweet poison~~

Tears Of cut himself again at 3:38 PM

Wednesday, May 11, 2005

Day Five

Accountings I was a breeze.
i just hope i'll do reasonably well.
=X

went to school at 10.30.
watch Beverly Hill Ninjas on HBO.
quite funny.
did a little research on capoeira and bdancing.
interesting i must say.
breakfast was the usual chocolate cake and coffee.
haha.

went to MacDonalds and slacked for awhile before tuition.
same table, same friend.
lol.
there was the mentally disturbed lady.
she kept waking in and out of the place.
whispering something to herself.
sitting randomly at tables.
weird.
i waved hello at a little girl.
she was so innocent eating her Fillet-O-Fish.
she offered a smile then a wave.
^_^

went back to school.
tricked awhile at the interchange.
i still can't get my au batido right.
aerial is giving me a bummer.
argh!!
after my paper on monday.
i'm coming straight home.
gonna dress up in pk gear.
flow myself around my neighbourhood.
till late in the night.
cause i don't hafta go to school the next day.
hahahha.
too bad for art students.

maybe i'll invite Rampage and Liah along.
some newbies that have sprung up in serangoon.
most of them claimed to have seen me doing pk.
hahaha.
i miss all the shit.
i miss the adrenaline.
i miss pk.
there's a game plan coming up for June.
i just hope i can make it for at least one jam session.
=S

tuition was a drag.
until Mrs Ang gave me some sweet from korea - AIKIKI.
hahaha.
it got me on hyper mode.
=X
somehow the whole class began a sing-a-long with aden.
-.-"

tricked again at interchange.
bailed on my aerial TWICE!!
au batido was nonsense as always.
sigh.
having physics paper tomorrow.
T_T
i almost cried last night revising formulaes.
okay fine.
i did cry.

***
sorry for being so spastic.
exams are getting to me.
=X
***

~~i just need to cry~~

Tears Of cut himself again at 6:14 PM